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A month of paying attention.. August Break 2017 

My mother regularly grows Lavender in our garden.  I’ve always loved the smell of it. My youngest daughter bought me this heating pillow for Mother’s Day & it’s filled with it and oh my it smells so good especially when it is heated the smell is just so powerful.. 

I get terrible monthly cramps and the warmth & smell help calm and comfort me at theses times, it was a very thoughtful and useful gift.. 


Ordinary Extra


Today is an ordinary day.
Overcast and cooler.
Unlike other hot summer days we have had.
I feel blah.
I see undone things everywhere.
Feel bloated.
I talk to God feeling unworthy..
Will I ever be super spiritual enough?
Yet even doing daily chores..
Little things can happen to add extra to my ordinary.
I rarely go to the library but for some reason I did today..
I’m in between jobs and waiting..
Today without knowing its free tea and coffee hour..
Only for one hour and I happened to be here for it!
I’m smiling now..
Thanking God for how this came to be.
I see something more in all this.
Something so simple yet it changes my whole day!!!


3 Gifts That Might Never Have Been


There are many aren’t they when you start to think about it..

This is another of the questions posed from the joy dare challenge by Ann Voskamp that is too difficult to write on twitter with limited space. So I will blog the answer instead. I actually had no real idea what to write at first till I found another blog post and read the answers therein… which I will link to at the bottom.. Praise GOD for all these things… and all the good HE continually does for me that I know and that I do not yet know about..

One gift was my youngest daughter in our family Zali.. When I desired to have her.. I mean the desire was really really strong.. Other opinions about me wanting it have another baby at the time was “not a good idea”. My marriage was shaky, four little children already to look after… I had also lost a two month old baby boy, and had a miscarriage at 16 weeks. Thankfully I followed my heart and although I went against what others around me said I am so glad I did.
My Grandma I felt was the only one really happy for me and when I went to have my first Doctors appointment to confirm the pregnancy I noticed he had a photo of five children on his desk. That helped me so much to know I had done the right thing.. Zali is now 12 and has been such a blessing to me along with all our children.. Her smile is a great gift to me… Because I know GOD heard my cries and answered..

2nd gift.. I almost drowned in the Fitzroy Crossing River. I don’t know how old I was. I think in my early teens but a friend Vicki and I were paddling at the Old Crossing.. The river was in flood so we were swimming in some overflow and I was not a strong swimmer but where we were the water was not moving. Fitzroy Crossing is in the North West of Australia and experiences lots of very hot weather so getting wet in the river was a much needed respite from the heat. I remember at one moment I must have got out of the overflow and felt this amazing pull on me.. For me the next few moments seemed to go in slow motion. But I could instantly sense that the pull, current, was way too strong and I would not have the strength to go against it. I reached out my hand to Vicki who was close.. and in that instant which I felt stretched longer than it seemed… I could feel the pull was trying to take me… and yet I just happened to reach her hand and she grabbed me at that very moment.. It was so vivid that I have never forgotten it. I would have been sucked into the river and maybe down under the concert bridge which was not that far away.. I know had I not grabbed her hand at that moment I may not have been here today writing this.. Was it an angel sent by GOD that helped me right at that moment… I think yes..

3rd… I shared this on face book the other day..
Conner fell when he was little… My brother and his wife bought our kids a big metal slide.. One rung near the top was missing.. It was really tall.. I watched him get to the top and he kind of missed the rung held on and then fell upside down… Straight onto his head.. I saw the whole thing.. I expected his neck to be broken from hitting head first and neck crunch to the side.. But miraculously he suffered not even a bump… He didn’t cry he just lay for a minute in shock then got up and ran away as if nothing happened.. It was a miracle from God and I believe angels protected him. I’ve seen my other kids fall much softer and come out with big bumps and always crying… It was a miracle.. My heart was in my mouth though and was racing as I ran over to attend him.. I truly thought he would have snapped his neck.. Praise God for angels watching over us..what a gift..



Today’s Soul Splash


This started as my prayer diary to GOD… but also shares my heart, thoughts and spirit. I cannot seem to write a blog post directly.. but flows better indirectly.. and as I am the same when I talk to GOD or you… 🙂 I feel its the best way to get my heart out there into the world.
Yes I did edit it a little for here.. some things are private and personal and between God and I.. but I think this is me.. my soul.. and I think every soul that splashes brings colour to the world..

Good morning LORD… Thank you that you don’t disappear every day when Im not talking directly or often to you.. It is a beautiful day out there and nearly Spring too!! I have LORD enjoyed seeing the Spring flowers around our city.. Especially the “Magnolia’s”.. they catch my eye… Thank you for a Saturday morning I love these.. pjs.. coffee.. crunchy museli today.. it my kind of fun.. I have my diary opened.. a pen to jot quotes.. I can chat to people.. comment.. share things on face book.. read… Thank you LORD.. my little sunflower is dancing..

LORD thank you for bargains yesterday.. it makes me smile.. for coffee with daughter Talitha and my sister Shell.. I would like to go to the Art Museum tomorrow.. and ice cream at “Cold Rock Cafe” something Zali and I can do and both of these were listed on my “100 things I’d like to do in 2013!”
I hope she will want too.. maybe even niece Kayla to come with us.. or my sister Shell I don’t know.. thank you You are right here in my room.. with me now.. when I do art.. when I am out and about.. when I post on face book.. when I cry.. when I laugh.. I am never alone.. ever.. yes I need to remember that more often.. You are very patient.. you are very loving.. and you are very good.. Thank you for many blessings you give me.. I will enjoy perhaps making more time for my sister.. to do things.. interesting things.. maybe next time walk the lake.. changes.. small changes are easier for me.. it feels good too.. Thank YOU I sorted things with my ex Justin about family matters.. We are blessed that although divorced we have the great relationship we have.. not many who have come through so much can have peace like that..

I was saying earlier to you verbally.. that I am seeing more things more interestingly.. like even though I have not been commenting on what my sister writes on face book always (deactivated her account yesterday for a time) with our different views and well we have had our struggles.. I miss her not being around online.. its actually a strange feeling.. not even half a day has passed.. I am surprised by that.. It has hurt the distance in our relationship at times and with others too.. I guess if you look at what you don’t have or wish you did.. it saddens you.. but when you look at what you have.. its contentment.. its peace.. its ok..

I know people LORD look down on – being online.. but its interesting to realise you can miss the person online when they are not there… that there is proof that online has deeper meaning.. it must mean more if it actually creates a tangible loss.. I mean yes for goodness sake.. I am talking to you GOD… and not seeing you.. how many believers have an amazing relationship with you without seeing your face.. but struggle with online relationships lol.. wow that so encourages me.. its the Spirit and Truth you spoke about many years ago I think.. What we experience is indeed only restricted to how we view it..
I mean ha ha.. this is the ultimate.. spiritual relationship we can have.. with YOU.. and if this is real to us it should free every other relationship and close any supposed gap in the physical realm.. It is total freedom of the spiritual kind which brings untold and meaning to yes… these flesh bodies..

I know I go off on some other tangents LORD so easily.. lost in translation or something like that.. but thank you for online relationships.. for this method of writing and relating..and I am so so so so so glad for the souls I am meeting.. LORD I love them.. they are so beautiful.. I feel connected.. I enjoy their souls.. its more real than I can explain.. and oh my every single one of them is unique and not one the same.. I mean its glorious.. to be totally free.. to enjoy.. to learn.. to grow.. to make mistakes and laugh about it.. or learn from others mistakes.. not to be pitied.. but loved as you are.. its so inviting.. invigorating.. yes… yes.. I will do and go and be.. free.. and no fear.. and enjoy.. and its not boring.. or forced.. or hard.. but heavenly in crazy ways that humans can participate in right now.. that are not going to be analysed but celebrated.. They can fly upside down or zig zag or dress in black.. or multi colours.. they can be known for what makes them who they are without restraint.. and yes people fly.. fly in the face of danger.. fly off the handle lol.. they fly when they do things that they shouldn’t be able too.. they fly when their spirit soars.. They fly when they live free!

I could see LORD the difference in Mandy’s face, I’ve been reading her e-book.. ( Spiritual Wanderings ~ Mandy Stewart) … from the first pictures in her book.. in her eyes.. in the way she looked to what I know she looks today.. incredible..

I really notice Gerri Halliwell from Australias Got Talent too.. she just stands out for some reason.. her responses are very thought out.. and she is a very smart woman.. and very beautiful inside and out.. I enjoy her being a judge on the show.. the things she says and her soul.. you get a sense that what you see is what you get with her.. very refreshing..

I am seeing different.. may that never stop.. I guess there is something to be said.. for being closeted.. you notice that much more about people and life.. because you cannot take it for granted and you hungrily notice it and appreciate it.. actually I enjoy TV for many reasons now.. what people say.. not sitcoms but the interviews about people where they speak about how they feel, their experiences and such.. I am looking forward to Sixty minutes interview with Michael Jacksons mother.. I can see Michaels eyes in her eyes.. What stories she would have.. how much she must miss her son.. because to the world he was “Michael Jackson” but to her he was her son..

See how I am noticing things.. I love that.. may that never ever ever stop.. Amen