This one surprised me.
I have made it my focus not to be ‘religious’ cause that has been a great stumbling block to me. I want freedom of spirit more than anything else.
40+ years of being a certain way, being like everyone else; until you do different: you have no idea how much in a box you are.
So when things come out of me of their own free will when I have thrown off the restraints and what has been my past.. what I write speaks to me too.
WRITING PROMPT Write a two column list. On the left, write 5-10 regrets. On the right, write 5-10 things you’re proud of accomplishing. Take note of the similarities in all of your regrets, all of the differences in your accomplishments. Write about why we are more diverse in our pride than we are in our shame.
1. Regret that I have not written every day.
2. Regret that I get afraid to write the truth.
3. Regret that I let others opinions shut me down.
4. Regret that I cannot always see that this is my calling.
5. Regret that I cannot always see that I am enough no matter how others have treated me.
6. I regret I bought into the lie my rising up puts others down.
7. I regret I bought into the lie that life isn’t about me. It is about me and everyone else too. 🙂
8. I regret thinking for one moment I can’t make a difference.
1. I am proud that I persist and have not given up.
2. I am proud that I have not stopped shining my light..
3. I am proud that I can express myself uniquely and say it fearlessly.
4. I am proud that I can be fully myself without fear.
5. I am proud that my failures do not define me.
6. I am proud GOD is with me and loves me and stands with me always and that He has given me freedom!!
7. I am proud that I have a voice and I have something to say and I keep saying it.
8. I am proud that my rising up gives others inspiration that they can too!
We are diverse in our pride because it’s who we are created to be!! We are formed from HIS perfect image.. Creator of our big beautiful planet also created us.. With all its different and exotic lands but yet similarities in the very cells that make up our DNA the very fabric of life itself. We each one are highly prized and important and so precious many just have not known it.
Our differences and our unique talents make life interesting and exquisite.. In the way we say things and in the way we do things. Who wants to be the same!! The beauty is in being different! We can all hold our heads up because we are created individually and we all compliment one another. Humanity has believed the lie we all have faults though (see it in the way we treat ourselves, our fellow man, planet and creatures) and yet to know the fullest truth that the spirit within us all unites us and brings freedom to become our fullest selves.. That anything we fail at right now will not ultimately keep us down. We can accept each other because we know all of us are free and equal in worth. Free to embrace each other without fear. We need to emphasize the strengths and not focus on anything else because the time is coming when all of us will know the truth and our world as we know it will be righted. All people and creatures will be appreciated and all seen and known as precious. I am thankful as a believer in Jesus Christ that I know the truth and one day we will all experience heaven on earth. This knowledge will always be a basis in everything I write about and why I enjoy expressing spirit and creatively the way I do and how I hold out hope when things do not appear to be good or make sense or when I am imprisoned by disability of flesh. ❤
I have stuffed up putting together this moon journal in every possible way that you could. Yet God is speaking so clearly to me. Beautiful red/white twine hold it together much like Gods pure love and Jesus blood and HIS spirit are central to all of creation..
No matter how much we stuff up this earth, our lives etc.. There is a force unseen that rules over all. HE will not fail to bring HIS plan together. Riveting and draws you completely in when your own ever failing and complete humanity bows to HIM and HE opens your spiritual eyes and everything fits. Spirit is everywhere, unrestricted, and forever..
Need to blog today..
Talk about why I think everything has gone the way it has and what the amazing result of it has been.
Like a honing in of myself to the worlds greatest source that ever has been and will ever be.
I have learned to not rely on external circumstances.
I have learned not to rely on relationships.
I have learned not to rely on what I can see, hear, touch and taste.
I have learned not to rely on the church.
I have learned not to rely on answered prayers that I know about.
Christ with me has been enough.
I don’t always sense Him probably rarely physically in any way.
But when I learn from HIM knowing HE is everywhere I see HIM more and more.
Just stubborn trust sometimes.
Sure HE uses all above but I have not been able to rely on them yet when I rely on HIM HE uses anything and everything.
It has all caused me to look to HIM alone. To believe when I don’t feel.
To seek when others aren’t available.
Truly a beautiful thing.
Its like your blind but can see.
Its like your deaf but can hear.
SPIRIT is timeless, present always and the greater reality.
It truly is another world yet I still walk in this one.
I have joy when nothing has changed around me. Its inner.
Not dependant on outer.
HE is with me that I know… I see signs now more and more and more…
There is simply not anything in the earthly language that could possibly explain the richness and beauty of what I am experiencing right now.. a forward vision of what is to come… Of an exquisitely set table that looks like it never ends.. Jesus Christ is standing in my view… His eyes pierce my soul.. but not a word has passed between us and yet He know the victory of this moment and our eyes meet and lock onto each other.. Across from me sits the very one I gave up half my human life for..
Looking very different to the human who once walked the earth for here they are pure and whole.
In an earthly split second as Jesus eye pierces my soul my whole life flashes before my eyes in particular the journey I went through with this same person.. The joys and sorrows. The beginning to the end of every earthly moment we shared. The moments I lay prostrate on the floor my face buried in the carpet with tears and snot mingled with the fibres… Crying and praying for this very one. Jesus smiles and so do I.. The swell within my chest is akin to a stadium going off at the end of a grand final the kind that keeps the crowd sweating and groaning and fidgeting on their seats..
I know now that every tear.. every prayer.. every pain… every ache and every sigh.. was worth it for this moment.. the joy etched on the face of my loved one and the smiling faces of every member of our blood family celebrating side by side. Knowing we all have eternity to share. That all that has gone past is nothing compared to the joy exceeding of living forever together with The Lord and all His children.
If I was to turn away and I believe for a long time I would have wanted too. I would see the Devil fuming, jumping up and down and cursing.. He lost, his every arrow sent to destroy us only broke me and poured forth holy oil that flowed over and drenched the lot of us.. I look away to my right and left.. seeing relatives down through the ages for as long as time existed stretching as far as the eye can see.. And again my chest swells with thankfulness and joy bubbles out.. Together many many souls have prayed and believed and trusted God for us too.. What an honour has been given the children of men to be His light where once darkness reigned.
Glory to God in the Highest… Peace on earth and goodwill to ALL men, women and children who still walk the earth, being born and dying till the age of man finishes..