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Vulnerability

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Day 8# Create a piece of art outdoors limiting yourself to just 15 minutes.

What did you enjoy most/least about today’s challenge? 

I could write a book on this one lol and that is because I feel so many things and am often alone with it. Feeling a lot right now but that’s normal for me so I am so glad I am able to do this right now. Honestly my art might be simple but it has mega layers of meaning to me.

I went to check out others art first and what others had done with this prompt lol which probably isn’t very wise. In the Thriving artists group I am in where others are joined together and I am doing this art challenge with there are a lot of very highly talented people.. 😮

My immediate thoughts were mine is not going to be THAT good. Lol and honestly speaking without being afraid to say it. It is what it is. It’s just simple water color probably the same as a child would do and yeah I have been doing art for awhile.

BUT this is what I love about just doing art. Simple can reveal so much and THAT is what I enjoy what it all means to me. Everything has deeper meaning.. it’s being able look beyond the immediate and more deeply see it..

This is drawn in our backyard directly outside my bedroom. It is winter here and quite windy outside. It was cold even for the 15 minutes it took and the wind was blowing straight across my paper and making the paper dance and the daffodils in the garden dance which I do so love.

Beforehand I was doing my sitting thing. It’s been a habit of mine. To sit.. sit.. sit..

But I saw an image on Instagram which I will share by Sark which made me almost immediately want to get up and go do this prompt!!!

It motivated me.

I just did it.

And I chose to paint outside my bedroom because that is where I spend a lot of my time. This is really weird too but just before I went outside to paint my bestie made this comment… “kinda still in ur comfort zone”. Woah!!!

So that made me want to do it even more.

But my determination was driven even further because my friend knows me better then most everyone else.. because he texts via messenger with me every day.. I just felt no no no he couldn’t be more wrong. More to it then meets his eye..

Timely that he’d say that though about my comfort zone when it was going to be my soul focus.. except the difference being that was I on the outside looking in.. My art was just taking a different perspective of it lol.. I hope just like me you can see there is much more to “this moment” ” this sharing”.. “this timing”… Cause all this stuff totally flabbergasts me..

That blue screen is a sun blind. I am thankful for it. It gives me privacy. Otherwise my parents whom I house share with and who do frequent the yard would look straight in at me. Sometimes my mother is gardening right outside my window!!
I house share so I value my privacy all the more. We share the kitchen.. our lounge is in the same room. So even my lounge is not private. So my room is where I go and spend a lot of time. I am more a loner.. can be happy doing my own thing. A lot of my art, writing, art expression is done from my room. My comfort zone I guess you could say. So sitting outside of it today in the cold sorta had some huge meaning. I wasn’t thinking about my room at all as I did my water color.

I was thinking just on the 15 minutes and getting color down and as much as I could paint of it in such a short time. I would prefer to go in and define it with like a black pen. To make it look better. But I have not done that. I did the time allotted and this is the result.

I can see through the blind to the outside from my room but you cannot see back through it from the outside. It is supposed to be for summer to protect from the heat but it is a privacy thing for me as I want my inside blind open and to see out but nobody else to see in. Kindly and thankfully my parents are happy to leave it down for me. I rent the back house from them. Two children and I live here sharing kitchen and laundry and as I pay normal rent my parents let me park my car in the garage.

The reason I entitled this ‘Vulnerability’ is that its just a very simple and not particularly great capture. Rough with a few colors. The blind takes up most of the page actually. So it is funny that something that I did and am sharing publicly is a majority of a blind/covering to a place I retreat too that I guess is what my friend sees. That I stay in and he is right in this fact a huge amount of time in that comfort zone.

So why do I disagree with him?? And why did I say he couldn’t be more wrong?

Because I feel vulnerable sharing something amongst a group of very talented people that is just so very basic and in Christian circles there are obvious gifts and talents and even out in the world from a very small age you can see people who have are gifted and I am not one of those people and I am ok with it. It is only really in the last 6 months people have commented on my art sharing and I will agree with them I am improving in ways. I have been openly and publicly sharing for a long time though. I know art is subjective and obviously good art who can not be moved by it. My vulnerability to keep sharing despite how I am is my strongest point I feel. I am not good at most anything really, definitely stay to myself and that is not wrong to say or putting myself down. I do not put my heart into much these days. But in these I do even if it’s simple and it doesn’t stand out and that is what I see is being vulnerable but also that I do it regardless of results. I saw other artists in the challenge say that they took a little more time and tweaking of this challenge so I feel brave that I did not add to it or take extra time. I was rough I know but I wanted to do it and do it as I am without fear and without judging it or changing it or tweaking it and without fear of sharing it.

Speaking about sharing a house with my parents at 48 is vulnerable. Speaking about staying in my room alot.. Is vulnerable. Putting out art that is child like as an adult when I do a lot of art already is vulnerable because it isn’t easy to show raw and rough. I think very much I am putting myself out of where it is not comfortable. This is what I did in 15 minutes.. Full stop..

Another reason I see it as vulnerable is that for me art is about sharing with the wider world cause I need connection. I am built to share and as a deaf loner.. people are not around me much (staying in my room doesn’t help that lol) and even as a loner I need people and look I know majority of people cannot fit to my needs and I cannot expect people to fit to mine but I still need people. So it is vulnerable to be out in the world with my simple water color art challenge and my need to write as much as I do on a blog hardly anyone reads and yes it is vulnerable to do this knowing what the stats usually say. Does it all have to mean something to someone else to mean something to me. NO otherwise I would have stopped and given up a long time ago.. it’s just lovely and incredibly meaningful when I can share it and it does mean something to even one other person. And sorry friend but THIS to me IS very much me being out of my comfort zone but you are right in that I use my comfort zone and that is where I am majority of the time.

I guess for me it is where GOD has been most beautifully with me despite me. I mean I can very easily have a lot of time to know my own self and I know where my own borders fall.. even despite the losing touch with much of the outside world. In my comfort zone I can that much MORE understand GODs presence in this place. Cause peace comes.. Joy comes. A sense of being held comes. Finding satisfaction with my art expression even in simplicity.. And yet I am on my own.. I do not sense this with people and yet I have longed for intimacy with people.. As I sat outside in the cold trying to convey and pretty poorly the outside of my room in a very short time. It kind of echoes why I am not moved to be anywhere else. Because GOD is everything and enough and I sense HIM right where I am and it can make me happy without results even and without anyone else needed.. And I let that take me wherever it will be it on this blog, via social media, on chat, on a blank page and/or through mixed media etc.

Talking about it right now and sharing my art is most definitely NOT my heart staying in my comfort zone even if my physical self retreats here!!!! My heart roams all over the world via internet lol ❤ ❤

What did the LORD show you through today’s challenge?

Miracles can still happen in comfort zones and to child like souls even if its only for me but I LOVE that I can share what I feel and experience and anyone could read it. Inspiration will always come when I am unafraid and do it anyway no matter the results. Art expression always blesses me. When I do it even simple. When I am weak. When I am vulnerable I know GOD is in this with me and I share it and keep sharing it and even if I do not see results or experience more than the personal joy of sharing.. GODs glory will be seen simply because HE is involved. And in two instances through every day occurrences even in my comfort zone I have seen HIM clearly.. Even when I am doing things that don’t make sense to other people.. HE is saying YES to the middle age, 48 year old deaf single mother still sharing a house with her parents, doesn’t come out of her bedroom much. That HE speaks with me and to me in ways right were I am and as I am… I am given strength to keep going. I can fearlessly be me so HE is seen because in my weakness HE is more clearly seen as my strength. HE is my help and I love that HE does all this in midst clutter, imperfection, where I enjoy it.. my heart can do things in my own way and personal style.. even when I am buying more art supplies that I could ever use.. It is more a matter of faith and trust to rely on HIM for the why, wherefores’ and meanings when you know it is out there in the world despite my weaknesses, faults and lacks..

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30 day Art Challenge

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Day #6 (randomly sharing here)

Create a piece of art using collage that reflects your ideal life as revealed by the Holy Spirit.

So easy these days in the Spirit which for me is in the creative realm.

It comes and I know it’s meaning straight away .. it may seem simple.. but it is such a powerful message if you can see it with spiritual eyes.. The eyes of your heart being enlightened..

But as my Collage shows.. Support is critical.. I smiled with the word mass tacked on to critical.. the meaning of those two words together says it all..

I truly believe with support I can best/better fit the role I’m meant to fill in in this life.. And it will be for more then just me.. I believe even now when I’m so often a loner it’s a word for the masses.. But the isolation hasn’t stopped me. I keep sharing.. keep speaking.. keep the faith..

My daughter gave me the Frankie magazine that all these elements on this page came from in this collage. The first time I saw the orchestra circle I knew it was a message for now.. first element I chose today..

Then the Secret Message Society magazine that I subscribe too all the way from USA came yesterday.. with the little keep card that says..

I tighten my circle..

Ohh how it all fits.. and it appears it’s what’s been happening to me too. A sign when I’m perplexed by who isn’t close and about that physical gulf around me..

I will photograph it and create a copy of the card to add to the collage later to keep it for display.. but it fits so well so for now it sits on the page so I can share it with you..

A poem I wrote this morning when I woke up and couldn’t sleep..

Like a great big gulf.

Where I am.

From where others are.

Like a lake at night.

Look across and see tiny lights on the other side..

That’s how I feel. Those lights are people to me.

So distant..

I talk to God HE is with me.

HE is with those across the lake.

HE is over the lake.. HE is in the gulf.

I am not sad. I am not anxious.

I am aware I am held in this place.

30 days Art Challenge..

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I start things and don’t finish but oh well.. I wasn’t even sure if I was going to do this.. Today I did my first piece and see how I go.. it’s based on the question below.. with Matt Tommy..

Create a piece of art reflecting your interpretation of God’s love for you!

No energy day.. no motivation day.. this began with an already painted background in my altered diary from 2015.. I found a blank spiral bound book (diary) good sized & solid enough pages second hand repurposed it as an art journal.

Started with scribbles no preconceived ideas.. used oil pastels & used colours that stood out at this moment.. Worked with them and saw a vision appearing.. i have had a very basic prayer time today.. small faith thing.. long life of not seeing.. not experiencing.. blind faith.. stubborn faith.. being led in desert like situations..

Turned into what looked like DNA strands.. I’m actually encouraged that there’s blues and pinks signifying to me.. male and female as one.. meaningful for a long standing prayer I have and also answers deep issues our world has about genders..

Also signifies the beautiful life God has opened up not outside but inside me.. I need to return to Spirit for everything to make sense.. come back to order..

When my outside world doesn’t do it for me.. can’t find inspiration any place.. I’m reminded of the inner world.. HIS kingdom is within.. When I’ve got what feels like nothing.. GOD simply is saying.. it’s ok.. all is well..

I’m reminded of resting in HIM with me.. sit with it.. Trust HIM right where I am as I am.. Peace settles.. simplicity.. beauty.. even just existing.. HIS presence is love.. with me.. A grand design already perfect but I need to refocus my inner woman vision to not be focused where it is currently.

HIS love is HIM.. always with me.. always beautiful.. always present.. always wowing me in countless ways when my mind is on HIM and embarrassingly rather easy to find right here with me when I stop worrying.. stop feeling depressed.. stop trying to work it out.. and just look to HIS Kingdom within me.. Get back to the core of it all already in me!!

Finding my voice through finger painting

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Doing a new course I started via an art bundle by Alena Hennessy.. I was asked..

What did you discover or uncover by doing this lesson?

What surprised you? What felt familiar?

My thoughts below on these questions along with my art piece..

I pulled out the colour acrylic paints that I was attracted too. Started in a sort of flow pattern using my fingers not a brush. I was less worried than I have been before about what I was actually doing. I always approach painting even something as simple as finger painting with a bit of trepidation. I feel it has to mean something from the get go. I’m not used to free form painting I’m used to my art having some sort of structure. I did do it with that lurking in the back of my mind. So I am not quite free yet but every time I paint I am a little bit freer.
What surprised me as I got started is that I instinctively started to form something on the page without thinking. And even though I did not have a formal plan it started to take a shape of sorts. I just kept it up and used the colors I had originally been drawn too. Only now I found another separate color would come to mind and I went and got it and added it. Not for any reason but that the color came to mind so I used it. I started with blues, greens and a maroon color. Then for some reason I thought of the colors yellow and bit later white. I added pink as well. I didn’t wait till it dried before adding more so that changed some.. It surprised me that I was thinking of colors out of what seemed like thin air. Then as I kept at it I felt that things were fitting into a kind of pattern. It was starting to mean something and that felt really good but there was also no pressure on me whatsoever. The relaxing meditation before I started really calmed me and although my body didn’t appear to be giving me any messages at that time.. which was one of the things we were asked to take note of. My painting did actually feel like I was painting my back bone and blood and it was channeling my creative flow and the wonderful growth and beauty it is bringing to my life.

So astonishingly enough my body was actually speaking to me cause there it is on the page!! I could literally feel that flow in my fingertips and how all my creative endeavours up to this point in life have been changing me within and ‘tada’ this is what was showing up on the page.

Familiar feeling to me was using creativity and enjoying my art journal.. Feeling free creating and feeling that now I’m expressing myself on a page I’m a true artist.. I had the idea as I kept it up that it wasn’t finished. So I just kept adding to it.. kept going till I was done..

The longer I painted the more I could feel where I wanted to add a color and how that color fit onto the page.

When I look at it now I feel its finished. How do I know?? I do not know lol.

I sense the word ‘Persistence’ when I look at it. I have had to be Persistent in my life, faith & art.. stubborn to keep my chin up.. Develop a back bone and creative expression has been a major factor through which Gods Spirit has brought me back to life.. Cause I’ve really felt in the past I was almost extinguished and felt stagnant.. separate to everyone else because my path became so narrow.. It was like I’ve been walking down a long, dark tunnel mostly on my own for a very long time but I can still see the world I just can’t break through.. Art has been the roots of a new strong me breaking through!!

I really like seeing in this painting that my life is beautifully flowing again.. and it’s all connected and I can truly say I am no longer stagnant or feeling as separate and alone..

I am really surprised just how colors that I have so easily finger painted onto a page can be so meaningful.

Expectation

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I am doing an Advent 2017 challenge via face book. Run by Mary Brack. I will add the link here. People are still joining in so come find out what’s it’s all about and join with us.

Advent 2017

The word I am up too lol is ‘Expectation’ and I laugh when I say it because I am already a day or two behind because this was for the 5th of December but that is American time not Australian.

Reading scriptures Isaiah 64:1-4 and Lamentations 3:24-26

I did a journal page and the words in italics below just flowed out of me as I thought about it so I will leave it as I wrote it on the page. Random thoughts just in case anyone is interested and can’t read it directly from the page.. the word ‘Quiet’ stands out in the scriptures I read..

It is good to wait quietly for the LORD to save. Lamentations 3:26

I am really not a quiet person. I speak loud, apparently snore loud, sing too loud lol and live loud because I cannot hear to do anything quietly or to gauge what is the norm. I slam doors, slam kitchen cupboards.. Even wash dishes loud.. I have been told..
But in a group of people I tend to be invisible and quiet because I cannot hear to join in. And I don’t know what is being talked about so I cannot really add anything to any conversation going on plus I am shy.. I am really too quiet apart from my own little deaf inner soul.. I hope ha ha I am loud in some way bravely putting this into the world.. it’s my hope..

But I do still feel quiet in my art cause it is so simple and doesn’t really stand out and wow people :).. I say that because I want to be a light in darkness..

And though I put it out in the world via social media and internet and art is my way to communicate. Not too much feedback so it is rather a lonely quiet stubborn journey.

So as in life and art I am apparently quietly doing my thing.. I think this is why the word quietness in this scripture really just reaches out and comforts my soul which longs to be a much louder part of the world but isn’t at least not in the way I wish.

To be a part of the world we are all living in but circumstances tend to shush me and I do wonder why and is it all for something so yes you do need to keep believing, keep trusting and just expecting that YES it is for some good.

All of my life combined has made me feel I am in the background for so many years.. But that God said it is good to quietly wait for revelation/salvation it just encourages me to ‘shine on’ as I am.. Loudly or quietly whatever the case may be.

I guess this IS supposed to be Advent.. Religious flavoured leading up to remembering the birth of Jesus into the world. I just tend to tie it in with my own life as I am right now.. But like the world waits for all the things God has promised to come to pass and really that can be a struggle when the world and our private life groans with stress of life and different trials.. We all wait and carry expectations for our faith, life in general, our dreams, for our family, Christmas coming soon, the new year of 2018, our future hopes and for our world all of which is yet to come to pass..

The word quietness jumped out at me. Resonates with my soul, my experience of life, faith and emotions. Parallel world I live in. Introverted, deaf, doing my own thing. Yet God calls it good. I’m so thankful HE knows. In a world full of noise, people have to stand out but many do not.
They fight to be seen, acknowledged, accepted.
Do thier thing quietly. I think of all the people who ‘could’ have seen the angelic hosts announcing the birth of Christ, it was the shepherds. Quietely tending flocks of sheep. Quietness doesn’t describe the hustle and bustle of Christmas crowds. Loudness booming everywhere.
The cries of the needy, lost to the world buying more they don’t need.
We all wait though expecting more.
The answer to what life means may just come quietly.

Buried Treasure

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I am so thankful that I won a place a while back in a course by an online artist friend called Jen Morris. Called ‘Journalling Into the Deep”.. I’ve been plodding through this course at a snails pace.. Just knowing how blessed I am to have been selected to win this 9 week course has helped me keep at it.. so very grateful.. 

To better explain I’ve been facing a life crushing lack of motivation in recent months and nothing much has sparked my soul to create so this has been a real God send..

My writing and art journal page below are my thoughts on one of the excercises.. Dealing with looking forward and using visualisation to see what my life might be like in 5 years if I didn’t use my hearts desires and dreams and left them as buried treasure.. 

** Really surprised with this one.. I don’t like my writing but I share it and let loose anyway.. I got a real inner sense of how much difference I do make.. 

I’m a total introvert.. hardly see a soul week in week out.. stay at home single mother so I’m a homebody most always.. online is where I love to be.. so I can find happiness as I am.. 

I love sharing my art journals too on Instagram/face book and I have a blog also but haven’t blogged in ages.. I think I might share this though!! Here I am!! 

I don’t get a lot of response to my sharing so there is nothing physical, as in signs that my getting less than I am, would make much difference in the world.. 

Yet as I visualised my life and leaving my treasures buried and not pressing on with the desires of my heart and the things I love to do.. I did get a real sense of it being a darker place.. a real sense of quite a negative impact not only for me but it really felt like it would impact others as well.. quite severely.. Considering my life and apparent hiddenness from the world it encourages me that my art does more than just keep me occupied..  

A quote I’ve loved in the past came to my mind.. from the movie “It’s a Wonderful Life”..

Clarence the Angel: ‘Strange isn’t it? Each man’s life touches so many other lives.. When he isn’t around he leaves an awful hole, doesn’t he?

Find out more about Jen Morris and what she offers at her web site –  Jen Morris Creative  

Month of Paying Attention

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Glass 

I fussed over this because I did not know what I could photograph that was glass and make it interesting.. than late yesterday afternoon I had to run my daughters’ friend home and passed our local lake. 

The Glass House of course.. famous for housing Begonia’s; we even have a festival for them around March.. Sorry the pic is a bit dark.. our last month of winter but Spring soon.. Had to wait till the wind blew the Australian Flag enough so it showed!! 



My Eyes

I don’t like close ups.. my eyes are hazel green.. more hazel than green.. I was really fatigued so yeah EVERY line and EVERY year of my age 47 shows on my face 😩


A month of paying attention

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Away for a few days so playing catch up. Posting pictures every day of August.. this is for the 3rd of August to today the 5th of August. See earlier posts for link with more information.. 

Roses are not in season/bloom in our part of the world. 

Roses
Would a rose by any other name still smell as sweet? 


Where I live 

Winter starkness.. Two children & I house share with my parents; Uncle lives in a camper van on the property too.. I’m a single mother on a disability pension.. So it means my family have more money to spend.. overheads are much cheaper.. We live at the back of this house which is a big house.. sharing kitchen & laundry.. my parents live at the front.. 

Bicycle 

Visiting oldest son with youngest daughter who lives in Melbourne for a few days so this was taken today on our little break away.. Lots of city people ride bicycles & I couldn’t help getting a bit of street art in too because this suburb of Fitzroy is well known for it. 

Gold

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A month of paying attention during August via Susannah Conway. 

August Break 2017 – links to other blogs taking part. 

Today’s word is ‘Gold’ and what better golden beauty than bright yellow daffodils stretching up towards our winter sun.. They remind me Spring is coming & warmer weather.. I had to capture the clouds too because they were wispy & feather like. 

August Break 2017

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A month of paying attention.. Found at Susannah Conways blog. Link below. Joining in with many others around the world who are sharing on Instagram & thier blogs too and the idea is to simply take a photograph every day for the whole month of August. 

August Break 2017

Here is mine for today..  

Prompt is — Morning — 

And it had to be taken fairly quickly because my daughter had high school and we were running a bit late.. I’ve added the months prompts here if anyone interested in joining in. 

— Frosty morning. No matter the season morning always welcomes the bird life. Last month of our winter here in Victoria Australia.  —