Following on from the last post I made here.
This writing and art piece are my work inspired by “Into the Shadows” part two I will link to it.
Going to work at trying to say less here lol. Didn’t work 😆
Inspired by a scripture John 14:23 and the latter half mostly. We will come to him and make our abode in him.. Obviously referring to me as ‘her’ not him.. I am a believer in God. But I kind of ditched everything I once knew to focus mainly on the SPIRIT because of all the difficulties I have gone through with life and also losing my ability to hear like everyone else.
Holy SPIRIT is my counsellor. Heart thing. From where I live from. Kingdom of heaven within reality. To get more of a sense of what I mean you’d probably have to go back and read more of my writing.
For me in this art piece. Having focused on my Shadow Self as I read what was asked of those following.
I immediately (without having even putting oil pastel to paper) knew this expression is what I wanted to express! I love, love, love the oil pastel kind of represents the HOLY SPIRIT too. In the bible there are many references to SPIRIT as oil!! That thought just came to me as I was writing and it is not why I have purposely chosen oil pastels.. When you are led by your Spirit it is absolutely incredible how all things work together and you just flow and know.
Here are my thoughts.
Naked flesh. I want to be vulnerable and transparent. Dark and grey background. Difficulties I face in the world. Many grey areas in our world even the religious world. Things are not crystal clear. The fact being we have so many fractions of religion and belief systems and non belief systems. Issues can divide human kind so easily and they do. How many bible interpretations are there and different beliefs about it.
Neck. Communication. My story/voice has struggled to be brought forth and therefore be acknowledged.
Hard.. so hard to communicate and I am not like everyone else. I even struggle to be the same as the majority of deaf.
Blue sadness. Struggles. Frustrations. Broken relationships that cut me off from being myself and its hard to do relationships because of what I have lived through. Feeling of being strangled. Choked. Alone. Isolated. The way I have been treated by people who should know me and stick up for me who have turned away and made me feel like my life force isn’t valuable. I find it hard to breathe life and be all that I am and can be. The mistreatment is like hands to my neck strangling the life out of me.
Black crosses criss-cross my throat to express all this but I think looking at the rest of my art this is not dominating my life and I do not need or wish to focus on this part of my life rather just acknowledge it.
Heart surrounded by my emotions. My need to express myself is huge.. Shows how central and important my heart/emotions etc are to my life force. I do not focus outwardly much at all these days. That shows clearly here.
Broken heart still evident though isn’t it wonderful to know and realise GODs SPIRIT still meets us in broken imperfect human hearts!! And so beautifully desires to make a ‘Home’ in us.. within us.. WOW!!
What I need to come fully or more fully into the light is…
To keep my focus on what is occurring within. That sweetest of meeting places where HIS strength combines with my humanness therefore changing everything!!
For out of the heart flows the issues of life.
Royal purple flow at the bottom which I still feel is so much smaller than it could be but thankfully it is coming.. is flowing..
But I notice that again isn’t the greatest of importance to me.. Isn’t what I need mostly or as it seems is my real true focus.
Right here I can take a load off.. sigh and take heart. For I recognise in myself immense growth. Because I am not wanting to be ‘famous or perfect’ in my art expression or even wait till I’m perfect.. Not just doing it for others either which is surprising.. Rather my art expression is the vehicle to seeing what IS my truest reality and then I share it.
I think recognising the importance of daily art expression and indeed realising it is a great gift to me from GOD. I can glory in being fully myself and realising that all the while inside my heart that although it has been broken by life is ever present and healing is occurring.
There is a HUGE powerful force at work within me. THIS is where I need to focus on to fully come back!!!! If only in my outer life like in my art piece I can see it as HUGE as this. That little flow might just start to flood and saturate the wider world around me!!!
This is my art piece in a large nut shell lol. I am learning even as I write this and contemplate my art.
It is truly amazing though that my art expression is not showing me what still has to happen. It is not showing me things I still need to do.
IT IS showing me what is HAPPENING ALREADY
I just have to be aware. ❤️🌷🕊