Working through a book called “Art Sozo.. Painting with God.. by Gail Spooner”.
This is what I would consider ‘Christian Art’ but yet strangely when I worked with that concept in my mind I didn’t feel it was any more connectful with God than say my normal art. There is this thing in my head or heart searching, searching, searching and believing you know that I have do ‘Christian Art’ a certain way or approach it differently but in the process of today’s exercise it seemed no more holy than my normal art. This is surprising. Obviously of course I am specifically looking for God to speak to me about what my art means though in this piece.
Looking at what I did and journaling about it as in relation to what God has revealed to me. I wonderfully see similarities to what I’m already aware of which is a lovely concept to settle over me. That just doing specific art isn’t any more or less about God than my normal art. HE is always involved!! ❤ ❤
Encouraged to keep it simple and that it is all about what the colours represent to me personally and what I am painting symbolises, letting it simply flow onto the page only stopping to think about it after I do my art piece.. Supposed to be limited colours. I chose more than two.. I also used a small paint brush. They encouraged a sponge or even a cotton swab. I preferred a paint brush but kept it easy and it was not about being artistically perfect which is not my thing anyway.
I realise as I consider this piece that overall I need to focus more on the whole truth. I tend to often only hone in on my own personal experience and view everything from this perspective.
I used purple but lightened it from the darker shade of purple in my paint set. Yellow. Grey. Blue. Well it was going to be Pink which is a colour I am flowing in a lot lately. Red/white mix looks more red than pink.. I do see that this has significance. As obviously red is a strong biblical kind of religious colour associated with the blood of Jesus. I like that even though my colour used is more pink than red the fact that it is not as pink as I have been using means that I am still learning in my general art process to express myself less towards “religion” and more towards a personal and honest to earth faith. I can see growth obviously but also know there is more to come!!! That is exciting. Losing my religion but gaining a spiritual knowledge and depth that is far above what I have been taught by mere men and women.. 😀
I see that God chose to give us HIS Spirit but the wonder of it is.. we house HIM in these very human and often clumsy flesh bodies. When I say clumsy anything human compared to a perfect GOD is very much a vulnerable & fragile container.
I don’t think of humans as being black anymore. The sinner thing.
Question : I was answering or seeking answers in my painting process about lies I’ve believed about my identity. Grey came to mind. Flesh can be a grey area. What I’ve grown up being taught as opposed to what so many believe differently as opposed to what is actual truth. Obviously I think of myself as lower level even though God says we are now seated in heavenly places with Christ. I have felt and often feel separate/separated from everyone else. Hearing loss, rejection, struggles with religion/control/judgements/difficult relationships & other stuff has isolated me which is why I painted a blue bubble around the figure that represents myself.
I felt more tense as I began this piece as I have when doing my normal art. Purple represents that my background has changed. I do know/believe I am Gods child. I do know/believe God isn’t judging me personally but judgement fell on Christ. HE values me. Sees me differently. He’s everything. He’s everywhere. I am not worried about my actions or where I stand from that point of view.
I know the lie is ‘performance’ ladder to heaven. Jesus became human HE fulfilled all the demands so I used the colour grey in between the rungs of the ladder to heaven to symbolise this.
Still see myself too low. Surprisingly the people I need to forgive or I rather prefer to say. ‘Who I need to view differently and not be swayed by or want to stay away from’ are represented by the group of others in the painting.
I have felt they are responsible for my feeling and being separate and I do see their actions have caused me harm to the point I want to be anywhere but close to them as in turn they have not wanted to be close to me. I need to let go off the lies that ‘I am less’, ‘not enough’ and that ‘I am not included’. Amazingly it was quite easy in my art even though ‘they’ and ‘I’ have been seen and felt as separated to paint us on the same level.. Beautiful and strangely freeing also to bind us together with the pink/red/white mix of colour. I am beyond thrilled that all of us are on the same level and when I saw this in my art I realise that I have to stop with the separation thing I too often claim as my truth which is a massive lie.. And introversion is really only another name for Spiritual.
Then there is this prevailing attitude that there are all different levels to where men, women and children belong.. You feel it. You experience it and sadly even Christians believe it but it is a lie from the pit of hell. I think it is one of the underlying core lies we have all been fed and the results of it mean our earth and human kind experiences so much separation and misunderstanding which is evil. We need a revelation of what is the real truth which I am seeing and loving in my painting!! Yet I know that even I am not yet experiencing the fullness of this but if I can just keep this in my daily vision and live this truth it is going to change my reality and maybe even more than that.
HE has made us one and that is where I have to restructure my thinking. Can’t be rejected/separate from that. HIS glory/grace/truth/gifts are for all. Regardless of where we see ourselves/each other or feel we are in relation to each other.. One and the same!!
Love how the purple showed the colour yellow with a tint of grey in the heavenly rays coming down on us all.. which was not intentional.
JESUS Son of GOD by becoming human flesh and living in perfect obedience while confined in a human body.. embodied the answer to all that God could ever possibly require of mankind (did so on our behalf) and is the reason for all this heavenly glory earth and all who live on earth will ever receive. The truth is..it is not by our doing. But by HIM!!!