It’s a weird thing being an inately shy person and baring your heart and soul. Ironic calling and inner drive that also goes against the social norm. Makes what you do stand out, make it look like your seeking attention. When that’s furtherest from the truth. Your natural inclination as an introvert is to hide away. Which is actually the best place to do creative work. From your cave you can easily use your imagination. Strangely here your spirit is free. To move beyond your limitations. Spring board to bring forth buried treasures. Not as easily distracted. Time to go deep. Nothing to compare yourself too so there are virtually no limitations. So what seems weakness becomes strength. The things that come from you inside you are not because of your greatness but because you allowed it to flow. You didn’t fight it. You used it. Despite how it makes you look. Despite what people think. Yes it makes you stand out even more. There’s your platform right there. A small voice that echoes. That has not stopped speaking. Which saw that circumstances can’t stop you. God knows that’s it’s at the edges of yourself He will show you greater things. So it’s best to keep going even when it seems pointless. Even when people turn away. People label you. Truth rises up. Blood cries out. Spirit rises up. You’ve left a mark. You’ve got a story. All that has tried to stop you has failed. All that has happened has turned your weakness to POWER…
Power to overcome * to share * speak the truth * accept imperfections * stand firm * let my light shine * to be unashamedly myself * enjoy abundant life * be at peace * know it all matters *to live free * transcend circumstances * choose life*
But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me.
2 Corinthians 12:9
It’s what’s I do. It’s how I’ve survived. In this life at least. It’s where I turn up strongest. It’s not like everyone else. But I see the beauty of that. If I sit with you. I’m quiet, reserved, 1/4 of the person I am. Uncomfortable. Difficult if not impossible to contribute. So I flow where it’s easy and I’m free. Do you miss me because I’m not there or because I break traditions? Make you feel uncomfortable? If you search for me you’ll find me easily enough. Would you rather I was a lifeless shell or a functioning freely flowing spirit? Every word here my spirits breath. I very much consider a place of awakening. My epiphany if you will.
There’s a human hand writing, soul leaking through imperfection. God breathing through me.
Why would I want to be anywhere else?
Unless it was needed more. My children, my life but they are growing up with lives of their own choosing.
The joys that come when you become the beauty of what remains of passing through difficulties, the dark tunnels of life and appearing in brightest light at the other end!!!
Breaking through to the promised land!!
One of my Journalling pages inspired by “Dreaming on Paper” course I’m doing with Lisa Sonara.
Phrase Poetry.. Challenging because your cutting out words and rearranging them to say something totally different. My spin on them. Really enjoying this course. Using my art supplies too!!
Everything I use here means something to me.. Love love love what turns up..
I typed out the words I used below the pic..
Life on a page is born.
It’s really important to morph and step into who it is we are truly meant to be. Every challenge or roadblock teaches us something. The key to honesty. To unleash my personal stamp of creative energy. I realised that structure wasn’t right for me. ‘Unboxing’ it on a page is such a powerful force to fully disengage from transitory elements, the usual environment and absorb the space to let go be really present in the activity that I’m doing.
If I have one tip, please retain your shimmering mystery.
So long since I blogged eek..
Doing an art course led by Lisa Sonara called “Dreaming on Paper.” Got my creative juices flowing. Producing art every day.. Literally something coming from nothing.. Physically not much going on. Raising children. Living day to day. My creative life is where I pour most of myself these days. Very spiritual practice and where my heart and soul finds immense satisfaction, release and fullest life.. God meets me on these pages.. It’s beautiful beyond compare and brings hope to the ordinary and dull places. I feel a call to be here.. It’s where the magic happens.. For want of a better way to explain it..
Todays my journal page says..
This is my holy ground. Where the answer always resounds with a Yes & Amen. Where truth lives. Where freedom abounds. Isn’t fake! Being transparent.
I do apologise because when I’m here I’m missing elsewhere. Eternal life goes on forever though. We will have our time together. I’m just using pages, colour, words, spirit, expression like this because right here there is literally nothing stopping me going any direction not even my thoughts are hemmed in. Everything is boundless.
I often wonder.. Will others see it? Can others see it? If you knew my life you’d be amazed by what I express. Cause I’m hidden away and reclusive. Don’t go anywhere much. See anyone much. Rarely have plans or dreams. That’s why this course dreaming on paper is so amazingly freeing to me. Opens up my inner world where nothing can stop me. I just go here because it’s where I’m most animated. The best of me resides here..
I feel free. I feel light hearted. I don’t feel disabled, poor, lonely, broken hearted as if I have no reason to live.. I see power in my weakness.. Joy bubbles up.. I don’t know what it means.. I just share it. God is here too.. I don’t need to go anywhere for the kingdom is within!!! ❤️❤️❤️