Last night I sensed the LORD all around me. The word Adventure popped up. Word of my month already. Just can sense GOD in what I am reading of late whatever I choose to pick up and I tend to jump from book to book. A word stands out to me and I embrace it not knowing why and suddenly its everywhere!!
Pic below shows “Adventure” for my “2014 Create Your Amazing Year Life Edition book” Oracle card reading for this month of February. I found a stamp with the word on… and also it has become my word for “New Brain Planner” month word for February as well… then I read it in a book last night.. Bam!!! Ha ha.. blew me away.. That it keeps coming up shows something..
I am alone with it physically because the people I could talk too its just not flowing with them right now enough.. so here I am.
What LORD do I do now?
Im typing because well its a release, it helps me commit to something. Gets my thoughts out. I have gifts as a writer.. though more than ever before I have found myself editing and re-editing and not just letting go as I write or even expressing it fully. It doesn’t just flow for me.. most of the time I start and get distracted… I have nothing and time has passed and just blogging is incredible that I actually get something out there.. I sit and I find it hard to get started and then I have to make myself write and like everything in my life with persistance it comes out.. I know I have lots in me but when you have few to talk too it gets pushed down inside.. I bet that happens alot to others too.. It might come out in frustration or I try and talk to the kids and they don’t want to hear.. or I say the wrong things and say too much lol and people close up.
I have been stuck in the past, blank, no direction, yes it leads me back to YOU LORD always that is why I talk about GOD so much and have the relationship I have with HIM.
Yes It feels like something should come of it religiously. I should have results. You know LORD sometimes praying doesn’t seem enough. I can be honest with you. Elaine sent me a post about being an intercessor. I couldnt acknowledge it for a bit. I wanted more lol or different and I don’t feel I am good enough or pray long enough.. Or devoted enough.. Also I have prayed for a long time about things and well they don’t seeem to change maybe that is it.. that I keep praying when others might stop? I don’t know what I pray in tongues.. LORD I ask that just once I learn what I am praying in tongues.
I am still drawn in my art (did art jounalling yesterday) to spiritual things I dont know that I could do anything else. But that I was reading about anointing oil in a book (later on) and I had pasted a picture in my altered book of oil or liquid dripping down from a red source. (see below) The Healing Power, a rainbow, even the words “God loves me.. He has led me…. I found and added.. WOW!!! Pic of kid looking up. A candlestick with lit candles. All very spiritual and very meaningful. I didn’t focus on a background either.. I just used what I had found of recent and it all is coming together that way.. White could symbolise purity.. Hearts going up.. Fullness.. Lot of love. Sacred Place.. On the very next page its where the Bride and Groom certifies that they are married… Coming together of the whole reason the book was created in the first place.. A lot of significance in this… I have a picture of Prince William and Catherine Im sure I will add to that page its not stuck down yet..
Royalty in their wedding finerey I think its the moment they first came out of the church and showed themselves to the world as a married couple. Yes a lot of meaning in that too.. that I am up to that page could signify that GOD is about to show HIMSELF along with me to the world/public openly?? Or show Himself along with HIS bride.. which is His people.. those who join themselves to HIM… happy too be associated with GOD.. Want to be associated with GOD.. He wants the whold world to know HIM… enjoy intimacy and enjoy HIS presence.. Ha ha… I have trouble writing that. I know you don’t have to do anything special to be Gods child. Jesus as Gods son His blood and sacrifice at the cross saved us all but its knowing that and believing that which changes everything. Its just the ones who will experience all the good stuff from knowing what has been done for us will stand out in the world more in days to come. Is what I am trying to say. JESUS is the reason there is peace with GOD, HE is the only way to GOD.. Our salvation.
It couldn’t be any more opposite to real life for me if this art refers to me. I am unknown to the world but I am royalty through the KING of KINGS who is our LORD JESUS in the heavenly Kingdom 🙂 I am just thinking about the symbolism, timing and other things happening in my life.. Reading books about the glory of GOD.. Ha ha.. people have told me JESUS is to be my husband as a single woman.. but I’m human too I want JESUS but also a flesh and blood husband to love on and live with.. People can argue with me but lots of people follow Jesus and have a husband or wife too. 🙂
I am posting this “as is” at the moment.. It might encourage someone. Processes are important to Artists and speak to our own selves and also help us see the meaning and message coming through as we continue to create. Without boasting GOD is literally everywhere to me. Truly apparent in books, media, others art, things people are posting on social media, in my circumstances, so strongly evident around me even as you can see in just one word..
When all seem to be saying similar things at the moment re (why I am so encouraged about this art I am working on) I have to share but I don’t understand my part in it. I can only talk more to HIM, keep working with what I have and am seeing and because its so inspiring me… share it for whatever reason..
I don’t know what it means but when things line up around you, words, books you read, you are believing GOD, seeking HIM more and more, praying, talking to GOD more and more and its unexplainable and yet you know that you know that you know there is something more wonderful at work. You have to DO something with that… Seems an urgency too. Perhaps a timing to things you know you have to deal with it.. do it then and there.. I tend to slack. Procrastinate. Wait. Put things off.. not even commit myself to art/expression every day but why I ask myself? I have a driveness inside me and am frustrated so I pray.. Still not always seeing the value of connection to art/expression and spirituality. I do get annoyed I cannot do anything apart from GOD.. lol.. other artists can do so many other things but for me it always come back to HIM.. I even have to write in capitals 🙂 It just feels right to me.. My way of acknowledging HIM in everything because I know good comes from HIM.. Look I am not trying to put people off but its something sometimes you have to do.. And I need to learn to be ok with what I do.. no matter if anyone understands that or not. Not be ashamed or fearful or held back but be free..
I don’t know why GOD would use me Im basic. I don’t have any great skills. I dont do anything special. Apart from spiritually speaking I am not motivated in any other way or have anything about myself that I could say.. Here is this or that.. this is my offering to the world.. I don’t feel I have an offering except I pray, I have faith and I am alive and I am a fellow human being right here right now writing this. Ha ha I don’t even have a great audience of people that read muah.. No one really seeks me out for council.. I don’t try to stand out I tend to stand back.. 🙂 I guess you might say.. yes but you write personally and you post about it.. Ironic isn’t it. Another thing I do that I do without knowing why. I guess its like the light on a hill scripture. Why put it under a basket or hide it away light is to be seen isn’t it!! I just like to share but strangely enough in a setting with another person I might not think of all this.
Its just so exciting what opens up to me sometimes that I am alone with.. I do struggle to explain it fully so I have to blog or share my art… I have too.. Many times there is literally nobody to talk about this with and I pace the house praying, asking why GOD and what is the purpose and why am I alone with this and what do I do with it? I cannot explain to anyone but its burning burning inside me.. I am called… I know that.. I am here in this world for a purpose… I know there is much more that this world needs that GOD has for us, I believe its out there but I don’t know what it is or what my part in all this is either but I seeking HIM for it… This is my way to express myself, my GOD and my journey..